Thursday, October 27, 2005

I'm BACK! Ta-Dai-Ma

OMG...I haven't been writing a blog for ages! And, to be honest, I've just remembered that I have a blog after a friend of mine told me to read his blog!

Well, something has been pondering in my mind.

I was talking to my best buddy on msn yesterday and as usual we gossip about anything. And then, I told him about the fight I had with my bf.

The story goes like this. On sunday after church, I took a train to the city and reached my bf's friend's house tired. So as usual, I asked him where he parked the car (I borrowed him my car so that they can buy whatever they need for the small party at night!). He told me that he parked it in the carpark in Chinatown (which would took us 10 mins to walk there!). So madly ('cos I was tired and frustrated) I told him off as saying that he should have parked on the street which would be cheaper! He just told me he didnt thought of it. Fine, I thought, doesn't want to make a BIG deal about it as I just want to enjoy the takoyaki party. The night went well and all of us enjoyed the party very much! As the good times passed, it's time for us to head home. He offered to pick up the car himself while all of us waiting in the apartment. After about 15 mins, he called and told me that the carpark was closed and we have to pick the car up tomorrow. It was like a thunder that strike into my head. I was furious but not showing it to everyone else as I didn't want to spoiled the atmosphere! When he was back, there were a total ignorance between us. Well basically, it's me that giving the ignorance. But then again, it would be better for me to ignore than to shout at him in front of everyone! However, he took it differently.

Well, to cut it short, the night didn't end very well. Because he was depressed and I was too tired to talk about it (I took some alcohol). When I was on the bed about to sleep, he just spoke out of no where. He told me that when he was young, he don't have many friends. In fact, no friends. The total ignorance from everyone makes him feels like committing suicide. At that moment, I felt so sorry. But nothing came out of my mouth to comfort him. I just didn't know what to say. Anyway, I promised him that we will talk about it tomorrow as I was really tired and couldn't really think at that moment.

Well, after telling my best buddy about this story. All he can say is weird. I was like WTF? That's not what I expected. So I asked why. He just told me that this is really stupid and this is no big deal. He just told me that "you guys just fight about random stupid things!" I was like, does this sounds stupid to you? Because I really don't think this is stupid!

After a night of thought and looking back at what had happened, I still don't think that THAT's a STUPID fight as we fought about that for 2 days. It's just that I don't have to make it that BAD for us to fight for 2 days.

Well, talking to friends is always good as they'll tell you truth and look at things from outside. I think I should really hold my temper. Hah!