Committee Dinner 2004!

These few picz are the committee dinner picz taken in Star City. As usual, all of us took plates and plates of prawns! However, there are always some exceptions! Check the pictures out! Wei just lovesss sausages, doesn't he?

Anywayz, enjoy the picz as the last two proves that WEI LOVES D**K!!! Cheers!

MSO committee 2004!!! 

Wei juz love the "sausages" doesnt he? Thats why he got the WL4 Award!!! 

Check this out! WL4 is in action! 

Karaoke

These are some of the picz we took on our karaoke session last Friday! It was really fun! We sang from 12am till 4am!!! Gosh! We actually cheated on the timing thingy... =P

The story goes like this. We went in at about 1215 am as they took 15 mins to get rid of the customer before us and also clean up the room. Besides, we booked for 2 hours with 8 people, but I think we had more than 15 people cramp inside the room! some of us have to sit on each other's lap while others hv to stand...poor thing... After that, we added another hour as all of us didn't feel satisfied with the "2 hour ONLY". And it went on till 315am. We were expecting someone to page our room to shoo us away but no, they didn't do anything until 345am! They just freeze our tv so that we couldn't sing anymore, ops!

Reached home at about 430am. I could see that the sun was going to rise anytime soon. I felt better because I actually saw the sun rising last last friday when I drove home at around 5 something in the morning. Anywayz, looking forward for tonight hanging out session. What time will I be coming back home?

Sonia was trying to be cute? nah, she is cute! while Louise is scandalizing on the phone...=P 

our Karaoke king, Aaron and Jay! while kenny was falling asleep... 

sonia, jo, AJ n Wei...jo looking blur... 

Singing in Green Box... 

This is a photo shot of prez n vice prez of mso 2004 and 2005: Aaron, Wei, AJ and me. 

Negotiation

I had such a stress morning. Was wide awake at about 7 something in the morning due to my forgetful nature: I forgot to close the window; Result: my ears have to suffer the noise pollution since 6 something in the morning as my apartment is located near the main road. I lazed around until my alarm clock rang, which is 8am. However, due to the procrastinating nature, I snooze till around 8 something. After all the 'daily washing', I had a traditional breakfast (coffee with arnott's biscuits for dipping, love that!).

Alright, cut all the crap. I reached uni at about 930am when the class was suppose to be 10am. Well, I thought my groupmate had received my SMS for her yesterday saying that I wouldn't be going to the meeting yesterday but to have a quick one this morning. Weirdly, she didn't receive. Oh well, nevermind about that. Unexpectedly, I managed to do some preparation and some figure calculation in that half and hour! That is why I always think that morning is a better time to study, or do whatever work that requires the brain.

Anyway, the whole negotiation went on for 3 freaking hours. The whole situation were pretty tense throughout the whole negotiation, especially at the beginning. There is always one hot tempered person in every group; and in my group, that will be Cecilia. As for the other group, that girl was even 'HOT' than her! Me and the others fall into the position as the fire bridged and have to save the fire before they could burn down the building! The whole negotiation were less tense on the 3rd hour as all of us are pretty tired and just felt like getting this over and done with! At the same time, both sides were making a lot of concession just to reach an agreement.

After some lunch and rest at home, I went back to the uni to observe another negotiation! This negotiation was so dramatic! During the whole negotiation, the Teacher's Association representatives was having so many dramatic phone calls saying that all the teachers were calling in to on their progress and they felt really pressured on this matter, etc. etc... Besides, hey have also threaten the Board's representative that they will go on strike if they don't reach an agreement and all the media and teachers were waiting outside to wait for their results! This is such a Big Whoo Haa!!! They have apply the tactics they learned in the lectures! However, the board's representative stay firm on their ground and never move a single bit. They were so calm in battling with the teacher's aggressiveness and dramas! During the last 30 minutes (they have only negotiated for 2 hours), the teachers have no choice but to offer a package to the board to agree on as they are running out of time. In that half an hour, they have spend their time looking into the package and clearly, the teachers have made quite a big concession on that. Just like us, they have ended where they just want to get it over and done with!

After observing their negotiation, I felt that I was so soft during my negotiation with the teachers as I kept on thinking that I am on the less fortunate side. But as I've describe before, I could have done better by standing really firm on my ground as I should have thought that teachers would also want to reach an agreement as they would not want to loose their job! I shouldn't have given in so much as they took advantage of us step by step! All these has made me think further on my future. Do I have to work in this cruel world? If you watched the Apprentice yesterday night, you would know what am I talking about. Mr. Trump just fire the guy who volunteer himself in the board room as he thought that he would definitely not be the one who get fired. Unfortunately, Mr. Trump did not think that way! He thought that that was a stupid decision as it would caused his company to fall if he use it in reality! Trump was right in some sense, but that guy just sacrifice himself just to avoid the other from getting into the board room and get fired! Has the world forgotten to see the good side of him? Has the world forgotten how to appreciate people's sacrifices? Has the world forgotten how to be grateful? All these have once again reminded me that I have to be part of it. I have deal with it and deal with it! Just like my negotiation, I ought to be more firm on my ground as I would get a lower mark in my negotiation report if the lecturers think I am the weaker ones! And I do not want that! Besides, I've contributed in helping the other team to score a higher mark than me! I do not want that as well!

Anyway, all these have pull me back from my ideal world. I've always known that this world is cruel; but on the other side of me tells me that there are still some good side in this world. Now, I doubt about it. What is the ratio of good and bad in this world? Is the percentage of the good side so low that you can barely notice it or there are still noticeable? I'm not so sure about the answer now.

Dilemma

Jonathan had his graduation ceremony yesterday. I have to sneak out of the lecture to attend the picture session after his graduation ceremony. Well, I was suppose to go on Monday during the afternoon with all the others but it was raining really heavily + I couldn't find any parking + I have no umbrella (lost it again!).

Anyway, I was running all the way up to the upper campus and I saw so many graduates along the way! To tell you the truth, I'll get really excited when I see the graduates with all their graduate gowns with the hat thingy. I've always imagined how my graduation would be or how would I look like if I am wearing that gown thingy since the first time I see graduates in uni, which was 4 years ago. I've always feel that that is such a long way for me to go! But on the other hand, I would tell myself that time passes in the blink of an eye, my turn will come very soon (which is true, coz this is my last semester!).

That was just some few minutes thoughts when I was walking to the Clancy Auditorium. When I saw Jonathan, I was really excited and happy for him! He looked so good in the graduation gown! And so were the others! All of them just looked so intellectual in that gown!

After that, we started hunting for nice scenery to take picture! We started it out by taking pictures in front of Clancy Auditorium and the library lawn. I must admit that even though UNSW has a relatively small compound compare to UniSyd and MacQUni, it has quite some 'photogenic' sceneries. Especially when we get to this spot where you can overlook the Quadrangle, that is an awesome view! Oh yea, I forgot to mentioned that we met yees (my housemate) along the way, and she took a shot of that view with Jonathan. Shortly after that, we went to uni main walk way and Computer Science building to take some memorable shots. That concludes my picture session with Jonathan as I still have to rush for another lecture!

Alright, you must be thinking that why is my blog has nothing to do with the title I put? Well, the dilemma I had from this is the confusion of whether to graduate or not. I'm sure most of the students would have some similar dilemma as me. I'm dying to get out of this studying shitz as I've been studying for the past 15 years! But on the other hand, I don't want to work! I still want to enjoy my life, bludge at home, watch Oprah when im free during 2pm-3pm, watch queer eye on Monday, watch OC on Tuesday, clubbing on Thursday occasionally as I don't have to wake up early for work the next day...etc, etc. At the same time, I guess I'm just had some fear of facing the corporate world. I've always heard a lot of stories of backstabbing, betraying, bitching behind the back, setting trap etc, etc in the working world! However, this is part of my growing up process! It's not that I have never experience these kind of ugly scenario! Anyway, I concluded that I'm just plain lazy, end of discussion.

And now, I'm just sitting here blogging, chatting online and doing nothing (I'm really tired coz I'm lack of sleep but i know it's juz some lame excuses!). Did I mention that I just cancelled my group meeting at 5pm? Gosh!

He's just NOT that into you!

These are the six intriguing words I learned from the Oprah Winfrey Show last week. Just a brief description on the show. Oprah invited Greg Behrenht, some director or co-writer or someone who are involve in the production of Sex and The City to the talk show. He is the co-writer of the book, 'He's just NOT that into you' with Liz Tuccillo.

In the show, she interviewed a few ladies who were in relationship quandary. In return, they could ask Greg about men's thinking. There is this lady who asked him on the meaning of her boyfriend saying, "I love you, but I'm not in love with you." The answer was out of my expectation. Greg said that from his understanding, I love you means I don't want to hurt you and I'm not in love with you means I'm not falling for you! So starting from now, I suppose i should assume that any 'I love you' statement with a big BUT would means 'I don't mean to hurt you'! Another question was that how come this guy would email her or sms her or talk to her on the phone for the past 8 months but not ask her out? Is he taking things slow? This is a big DUH for her. OBVIOIUSLY he is not interested in her! And the list of similiar questions goes on...

On the other hand, Oprah also interviewed some guys to reconfirm on those men's thinking. One of the guys actually have 3 lists in his mobile phone; his dream list, normal dating list and last minute list. He would normally call the girls in the dream list on monday or tuesday to book their weekend; normally dating list on wednesday or thursday and last minute list on friday evening (after work or right before heading to the pub). Another guy said that he just lied to a girl whom he met a while ago about how he dropped his mobile in the toilet bowl and lost all the contact detail. That is the lame reason for not calling her!

After some long thoughts, seems to me that all these really make sense! Girls always like to drown themselves in their dream world or fantasy. They always make excuses for guys who didn't call them on expected time; i.e., he might be busy, he might wanna play it slow, he might be those shy type of guys...bla, bla, bla...These are all self-denial! He's just NOT that into you!!! Girls just like to make all these lame excuses for guys to ease their feelings. Some of the girls would even stand their partner cheating on them and thinking that as long as he'll be coming back to her at the end of the day, everything will be fine! There is this one friend of mine who will always start smoking when she break up. She'll have a very serious emotional break down and started taking sleeping pills sometimes! She'll beg her life to get that guy back to her side. Girls just don't accept the fact that He's just NOT that into you ANYMORE!!! That's why girls live in their self-denial fantasy world! Nevertheless, I've always respect girls who have the courage to beg a guy back. I've always think that this requires a HUGE courage and braveness! You have to be really 'thick skin' to do this! I have never done this; maybe I've never love someone (just like) or maybe I'm just too egoistic or maybe I haven't met THE ONE in my life. But on second thought, if he is THE ONE in your life, you would not have to beg them! OK, I'm in my dilemma and contradiction thoughts again, let's not get into this.

Afterall, I just hope that we girls could be more realistic sometimes and remind ourselves that, He Is Just NOT That Into You!

Single? or Attached?

Recently, there is this one friend of mine who brought up a question that makes me think.

-Do you prefer to be single or do you prefer to be attached?

This question has helped my brain to work a little since God knows when. So I answered him within a minute(or less) of thinking(we were chatting on msn).

-I suppose it all depends. If friends around you are attach and they always bring their partner out when you guys hang out, I suppose you will feel eager to get yourselves one as well! If friends around you are mostly single, I suppose you would not feel the urge that much!

-I suppose...

-Do your prefer to be attached or being single?

-Attached I suppose.

-I can't imagine you saying that! (not with his player reputation!)

Let's not get into personal gossip.

Anyway, this question has made me think for the past couple of days. The reason is, I didn't answer that question at all, I just gave a general idea. While searching for an answer for myself, I am having some reminiscence of my good old days......

When I was younger (I'm still young), I was never willing to commit for a long term relationship. I have always had an idea that 'what if I meet a better guy during the relationship?' Therefore, in order not to fall into the category as 'player' or 'heart-breaker' or 'scandal', I chose to be single. Along the way, I've got in and got out of some relationships, have had some sort of unclear relationship and have seen dramas repeating around me. Of all these, I've experienced life in different aspects. Love, hatred, trust, betrayal, happiness, sadness, hope, disappointment, peer pressure, satisfaction, emptiness... All these lessons, I've learned it either directly or indirectly.

Besides, I loved freedom(still do, but not as eager as I used to be). I hate guys who loves to control their partner. Come on man, I have a mum at home, I wouldn't want another 'mum' in my social life. Therefore, this is one of the reason for me not to commit into relationship (maybe it's just my phobia as I had some bad ones).

After all the reminiscence, I am yet to reach a conclusion. However, I know that I've grown up a lot. I know what I really want in looking for an ideal (not perfect) partner after all the relationships I've been through. I've learned to be understanding as I used to see things only from one angle of the situation. I've learned to compromise and accept a person for who he is. I've learn how to communicate and have contructive conversation. I've learned a lot.

However, there are still long way ahead of me. I am looking forward to that.

Melbourne Trip

Just some description on the pictures i posted. A bunch of lamers from Sydney went to Melbourne for the MASCA Games 2004. Just in case you wanna know, MASCA is Malaysian Student Council of Australia. This sports carnival has been going since 2002 in Canberra and 2003 in Brisbane. Anywayz, we have lotsa fun there! More picz will be posted in the blog soon! I'm freakin tired now...laterz!

a bunch of smokers...in between breaks during sports carnival! 

All the HOT chicz on the last nite! 

yea man...fucking BIG tits!!! 

This is picz in the bus while we r on the way to Melbourne on the 26th of Oct. Kenny, me, Sonia n Justin Cheong.